a wonderful night

It seemed like I was gone for a couple of years... grabe naman tong mga tao dito sa Cebu..so warm..pero ang iba plastic.hehehehe I need not mention the names, but anyway I got to do the things I should've enjoyed while wala ako sa 'Pinas at nagpakababoy..hehehe I gained weight..enough for everyone to notice...but bahala sila..manigas sila..my experience and travel is by-far better than their criticisms..(maybe di ko lang ma accept na tumaba ako..kaya ako defensive) sa bagay... lamon ako ng lamon doon sa HK...hahah..it was a nice trip though.. wished I could bring my family there.

Going back, I finally saw the faces of the people na sobrang na miss ko... pero yong isa... itago nalang natin siya sa pangalang RIZZAAAAA...AAAA..AAA.. nag ka "LBM" daw.. to quote and quote and quote and quote... hahahah di nagpakita... siya pa naman ang nag invite ng dinner for us three ng isa ko pang gym mate at itago natin siya sa pangalang BLOIGSTER..lol hahaha ..di nga si Rizza na tuloy sa dinner pero..ako at is bloigster ay talagang kumain (CHEATER YANG SI BLOIGSTER --- sabi nya ..nag aafter six daw siya pero kumain kanina..ahhaha ) oh well wala naman akong reklamo... masaya naman kaming kumakain..

Masaya sana kong andoon si Rizzaa... ang babaeng walang pahinga... trabaho ..puro trabaho ang inaatupag... na amazed nga ako eh..as in AMAZEDDDDDD ako kasi nagpakulay ng buhok...may oras pa pala basta pagpapaganda na ang pag uusapan..so Siya..lets not talk about her.. she's in constant denial..lol di nya tanggap na babae siya... ahahhaha PEACE rizzaaaaaa..

Pagkatapos naming kumain sa larsian...ayonn..... parang naggoosebumps na ako sa mga pinagsasabi nitong si Bloigster...magpapamasahe daw kami..hehehe TAMA BA YUN? masahe after eating..sa bagay.. FOOT MASSAGE nga lang...so naglakad muna kami ng di masyadong kalayoan..nyahahahah at yun... naisipan namin na mali pala yung daan namin papunta sa MASSAGE PARLOR... kaya nag u-turn kami and we turned right...tapos right ulit hanggang nasa RIGHT spot na kami... ohh may gassshhhhhhh... wala lang.. I saw the masahista na naka tambay lang sa labas..nag yoyosi.. matumal siguro ang negosyo.nyahahahahah.. I enjoyed my massage... ang bait talaga ni Lord.. libre ni Bloigster.. salamat nga pala..hehehehe nakalimutan kong magpasalamat sa yo..hehehe

Lumabas na kami ng parlor..at sa paglabas namin.. AMAZING.. may naka paradang taxi...and mind you... AMAZING rin yung driver... he drove a TAXI for a living.. marangal na trabaho..diba? and the driver is really amazing... may hitsura and bata pa.. FRESH NA FRESH ...hanggang tingin nga lang ako eh..but who knows, makayanan pa pala ng powers ko..hehehe pero.. di ko matake not to know the driver's name...so tinext ko si bloigster...hahahah sinabi kong.. HINGIN mo ang number ng driver..hehehe ... ehh di naman daw nya kaya yung pinapagawa ko.. so I managed to do it myself... hahahaha... for questions on how I did it?. simply lang..I ask mamang driver to answer my question... like san to naka garahe..and all that shit that leads to asking the drivers number... and YES.. I successfully did it.. hahahaha HANEP.. pero okey lang.. my intentions are clean naman.. I want mamang driver to pick me up for my Manila trip..ehehehe kaya yun lang..

Tinext ba naman ako ni BLOIGSTER.."ANG LANDI MO"... hahahaha hahaha dika dapat nakatira Dito sa PINAS BLOIGSTER..di ka lahing pinoy.... INGETERA ang nationality mo..dapat nasa ENGLAND ka..lol hahahaha PEACE BRO..hehehe

Yan tuloy.. im waiting for the mamang drivers text after sending him a message...oh well sa bagay ... okey lang yun kong ayaw nya e di ayaw... baka di nya gusto ang pera ko...kaya ayaw nya akong pasakayin..lol hehehe but cge lang..... it was a fun and relaxing night... first night ko after my arrival... sarap ng masahe..hehehe lalo na't libre.hehehehe

Just Recently

Just recently I have been receiving text messages from a friend who's been out of circulation for quite sometime. He has been a good friend to me and not just a good friend to consider but someone, "I think", I used to LOVE or it would be kinder to say I LIKE. It was quite humbling to know that we've already patched things up between the two of us or should I say I was just too assuming to think that we're good already and the communication is back again.

I can't understand why I like this person, I can't even tell this person I like him. I keep myself mum to him about my feelings but I am showy and I act on them(feelings) vividly. GEEZZZZ..what's happening to me!!!!. My friends kept asking me this questions "WHY HIM?" ... I couldn't give them an answer.. I just cant. I don't know where to start answering their questions. I don't even know if it's answerable or not.

I don't want to be a hypocrite and deny that I don't like the person. It's just I am torn between someone and him. At this point in time, this is what keeps on bugging me. The thought on my mind that says "you should tell him the truth and let go, so you won't suffer too long for not telling that person you like him", but then again a part of me says "NO!... don't do it or else your friendship with him will suffer.. he will accept everything and will learn to accept everything in time. "

I am not stupid, I don't want to be one, nor be a heart breaker but I don't want to break my heart either. I just wish I can have two hearts, separately loving them both. But I can't have everything else in this world. Everything should be equally shared and be given to everyone purposely and fittingly.

So I guess mine has been given to me, I love the person I am with now. He brought sunshine to my life, I guess both of them did. This person broke my heart many times but I can't just let go of him. He is like a drug to me: he is my cure,my addiction and my death. However I have not reached the part of the death yet, but truly he is.

I am confused... I still like the person I used to LIKE...but then again I like the person I am with now. What am I to do? I can't love two.